Crimson Red , monotonous grey

Wednesday, March 14, 2007 9:17 PM

PLTC and more WIERDO stuffs

PLTC is sure tough...but its fun like the food, games and also our talking night >< i lazy to go into details into these but its indeed a wonderful memory as i tend to talk more now (not so much la) and i am SHOCKED that people actually read my post =.=''' like yil yiing. Thats the real me...truely.

Okay more wierdo stuffs now....some people asked me stupid questions...

Did you cry before?
OMG someone asked me this =.= this is LAME de lor. Everyone cried before including me. The person asked me this is because i din cry in school before. EH!? y shuld i cry in school? So hard to make me sad leh. i used to bottle up my feelings, emotions etc. (but i laugh more now) but if i cry in school, some can say lucky coz they finally see me cry =.='''

why are you a clean slate?
What is clean slate? no like or admire ppl before la. EH!? i cant figure out why i am a clean slate coz i see boys like normal human, no special feelings etc. Then people say me not normal. EH!? normal person (girl) will like a person before meh? I heck care sia!!! Den my friend say that my life "bai ma wang zi" not here yet. (prince) =.='''

Why did you bottle up your feelings?
actually in the past i dont. I very da fang etc de. That means in the past i have NO secrets.(own la) only friends secrets(like who like who). Very something hurt me very deeply that left a scar in my heart. Then after that, i keep everything to myself. What hurt me deeply? DON TELL YOU! (nothing to do with BGR la)

If no guys like you whats the main reason?
Hmm... i not guy la how i noe? But to me myself, i think that i am not "chio" enuf for the boys. I am so UGLY. yes, i am ugly... in my class and other people so pretty except for me the most ugly. and also i not kind enuf and gentle. ><>Why have you changed so much?
i said before, i am hurt very deeply. VERY. in just a day, i changed totally opposite. My fat little face turn to a thin ugly one. I lost confidence. I dont ai mei ler. Gentle became rough. Kind became ignorant. and my soul is gone. i was friendly and brave but now shy and unfriendly. from happy to sad, sad everyday now...like to sa jiao became nothing...

Do you wish to be the same again?
Of course! I am girl, i must ai mei back! I must sa jiao like the past! I must be gentle and kind again!I want to revert my confidence! I want to be friendly and brave once again. Even though is one day i will be happy enough. ^^"""

Who will break your cover?
i been waiting for years for people to help me open up. So far none. Friends are good but they are quite different form me, they are more of girl type while i am the odd one. What kind of people can help open up? I doubt my friends can...i doubt my parents can(because it failed) so who else? No one?

AIYA I WRITE SO MUCH! SHOOO! (jkjk) anyway gtg ler...next time i will continue...you want to read ur buzz....cya!