Wednesday, April 25, 2007 9:48 PM
Childish Thinkings
feeling very down and low...its like as if something is pulling me down to the depths of the ocean to die. its not a nice feeling...reason?those exam exam test test is stressing me out. i failed my maths test again...gonna have a retest but not prepared...science is so damn hard...i cant remember anything..guess i gonna get a B or C for science...tomorrow is art exam...hope to paint finish...or else another worry. if i din do well in Mid Year, i have to submit myself to tuition tuition and more tuition...
then another thing stressing me out is all those worthless rumor or whatever..haiz...they spread like spreading kaya like that. spread so fast. the trend in north view is "Fake things spread fast, real things spread slow" i just dont understand why they spread and i din even nod my head or say anything when questioned. does this means silence means consent? NO WAY! badly wanted to fight back but scared u ppl angry so hesitate until u ppl climb on my head. does this means speaking to a guy means you like him? OMG thats a childish thinking! does red face says yes? NO WAY! no one get my point. and this make me hated myself for being born like that. being too sensitive = in troubles/teased. hmmm...but some people dont understand my english huh? i will get this straight.
I am not interested in him. Thats final.
understand!? just hope this dies down...or else my face will be charcoal face and go around diao ppl like shooting machine gun. haiz...just hope it dies down...please i beg you la...don talk to me on all those relationship stuffs..i very scared de..sensitive and phobia to it...(okay i am crazy)
quite depressed...want to cry also cannot cry. want to tell someone also cannot. never mind la...just hope everything goes well...ok in guides its been messy...my juniors behave well but abit of little fights and stuffs...just hope that they wont be like us...
last thing that makes me sad is..the classboard. i am quite happy about the reaction from the class chat box. the reaction is overwhelming. but some things make me sad too...not gonna say but for now the class chat box is CLOSED. i tore the paper so the class chat box is in the dustbin. i tear many things up. guess i cant do anything for the class...and also actually i have the thinking of putting back the pictures but...looking at how you guys have done...i rather not.
wow today write so much...suan ler don write liao..tmw den write..so cya!